A couple hours ago, my mom told me that a family friend passed away this afternoon. He was almost 90 and had been sick for a long time so it wasn't a huge surprise but it's still so sad. For his family, obviously not for him since he is now in Heaven. I'm sad that I won't see him again on Earth. I grew up knowing him and he was such an incredible person. The older I got, the more I appreciated him. Every time I talked to him I felt so good after because he was just so kind and genuine and really cared.
After the call, I immediately started thinking about my grandma who was really good friends with him. She died about five years ago and I imagined the huge welcome she gave him when he arrived. SOOO great. That's going to be so fun when we go to Heaven (after seeing God's face and talking to Him which is obviously the bigger thing and what I'm looking forward to the most) and get to be reunited with all the family and friends that have gone before us. And all those amazing people the Bible talks about that lived completely for God like Job, Paul, and Moses (and the rest). I'm so excited to ask them about their lives! :)

What's the Next Step?

Every time I hear that someone has a major, is happy with it, and knows exactly what they want to do after college, I get a little jealous. Of course I'm happy for them but I wish I could have that solidness. I just recently took a couple assessment tests to help me figure out myself. :) I still need to look them over more thoroughly but in my initial scan, every time I saw a job option that sort of stuck out to me, there was only a few seconds of real interest before it disappeared. I wish God would be more direct in showing me where I'm supposed to go and what the heck I'm supposed to do with my life. I know He has a plan (right?) but He hasn't really directed me too much so far. And I need to know now! Obviously, I'm just a human and God is God so it isn't at all my place to tell Him what to do. But it is extremely hard to sit back and let Him work in His own time which is so much better than mine. I just want the comfort of hearing Him clearly tell me the next step I should take. Just the next step.